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By Jelelle Awen
I was feeling tiredness yesterday and today I am feeling in glow and flow….softer, surrendered, open. This is how the waves of energies seem to impact and invite us to ride our own inner waves of emotional body waters, especially in this now of August 2017 and Lion/Lioness/eclipse frequencies. I was with the tiredness that came from some recent situations (growing pains in the best way as our community grows) plus what was DEEP in the collective Metasoul (and mine too) from those of us choosing to lead in so many different expressions and ways in so many timelines and realities (as so many of you shared about yesterday too in resonance). We need to feel this bone and soul deep tiredness at times, be willing to BE with it because it is REAL and we serve ourselves immensely and the collective in our feeling of it.
It was fascinating to me yesterday that sharing from that tiredness, yet, also offering the ultimate choice of love (as being with that tiredness IS a choice of love), I then received probably the most response I have on any of my facebook posts in terms of the amount and volume of comments, likes, and sharings. I so appreciated the vulnerability in many of the comments and the PURE love and appreciation for me and what I am leading and sharing as well. It was overwhelming to be honest and I did some checking in with my guides and Metasoul aspects for support to hold it, let it in, and respond to it and to take my next steps into leadership….moving into the new for myself and away from experiences of the past with ‘crickets’ in the room and very little response. Because I have engaged in much egoic/false self deconstruction work through parts work process and many death/rebirth phases around offering my gifts, there doesn’t seem to be a self image-based version of me grabbing onto this attention, yet rather I feel a ‘beyond personality’ energy inside of me (the higher self coming into body) that responds to serving love…..AND trailing edges/echos of parts of myself that get kicked up and triggered at times too (although this is not much these days.)
It really struck me again how there is so little permission in our 3D culture to feel, to be real…and this seems to have translated to our spiritual/awakening culture as well, although I do feel there is an increasing waking up to this bypassing of emotional reality and the cost of it. The ultimate cost is in what then doesn’t get to feel the light of your love…..creating a shaky foundation for which MUCH energy is needed to keep it all intact to maintain the appearance of being shiny and bright.
I can only share and teach and lead and BE what is emotionally authentic for me…this has taken MANY years of feeling what is not authentic and the parts of me that create these not real frequencies and why. I cannot pretend to be light, high, and UP if I am not. Or spacious and kind if that is not what parts of me are feeling. That doesn’t mean that I get to kick out or abuse or project at others….I hold myself responsible for my emotional reality and its impact in a very deep way (probably more than most souls can even track and at micro levels after many years of parts work.) I don’t feel this realness disqualifies me from leading or teaching, yet, rather is the new grounds of qualification for leadership in New Earth….realness, vulnerability, self permission, NOT pretending to be strong and brave, NOT being a warrior who ‘toughs it out’ yet rather to be soft, open, and also REAL about what we are feeling when it isn’t soft and open. This New Earth leadership empowers every soul to BEcome a leader of themselves, inside, and most importantly at the emotional body level where there is often the most immaturity and unhealed woundings.
The permission I am offering here is what I feel the Divine is also offering us ALL. For so long parts of us have played in this 3D experiment of pretend and get by, worn our masks, and followed the rules. THIS is what is collapsing now as those of us in heart and soul resonance are rebelling against this control system and fake matrix. The rebellion phases can have a lot of RAGE pushed up in them, outrage and necessary advocacy as parts of you say ‘no’ to so much of what they were served and conditioned in.
Another phase seems to be surrender to the Divine yet still with DEEP commitment and sense of the New Earth vision and to living it out in the Now. Not as a future goal or when some grand event happens where everyone ascends at once….yet rather a commitment to the process of it, to the every moment of it, to the ups and downs, to the highs and lows, to the dark and the light. A commitment to the mess of it and to the beauty of it too…..the bliss mess of it. This commitment, really, is to yourself AND to the collective too and that you’ll stay with the process and ‘in the room’ as it all falls apart and is reborn again.
This commitment is to love and the ongoing service of it…NOT just in the good moments yet, rather, in ALL moments. This is a BIG commitment and I feel how so many of you take it seriously and your own processes first of all. Things ARE shifting, New Earth is here in the now, and our commitment to love is offering us the gifts of experiencing the returns of goodness more and more in our daily lives, as we are meant to.
Thank you for BEing on this journey with me and for your choice and commitment to love. I am HONORED and so appreciative that you are HERE!!!
The challenges of this journey of transitioning into New Earth are immense and ‘going it alone’ is an aspect of the old paradigm and lone wolf phase. We are here in SoulFullHeart for support, guidance, community, empowerment, love if you are ready to receive and give:soulfullheartwayoflife.com/services
Raphael Awen and I are hosting one of our heart opening group calls this Saturday to digest all the influxes in ascension energies and how to be with that on an emotional body level through our parts work process:https://www.facebook.com/events/141617019749771
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Channeled by Brenda Hoffman for http://www.LifeTapestryCreations.com
Summary of Brenda’s August 4, 2017, channeled 15-minute “Creation Energies” show at http://www.BlogTalkRadio.com/brenda-hoffman: En masse, you’ve decided to emotionally transition from eons of pain, anger or fear to joy. So it is you’re in an emotional gray period – feeling fear or sadness unexpectedly and perhaps giggly joy inappropriately. From this emotional place, you’ll transition to joy, knowing joy is your emotional future with a bit of unremarkable fear here and there – just as you once experienced 3D joy.
“Fear Addiction” is the title of last week’s “Brenda’s Blog” – her weekly channeled blog for http://www.LifeTapestryCreations.com.
Brenda’s “Creation Energies” show and “Brenda’s Blog” contain different channeled information.
Many of you are confused by the emotions you are experiencing. At times, you even seem to react opposite of your emotional comfort zone.
You are drifting from one unusual reaction to another – worried that your ‘normal’ demeanor has slipped away – trying to return to your expected self to little avail.
“Who am I?” has become your frightened cry, even though your new emotional reactions are erasing many of your past fears.
The unusual emotions you are experiencing now are part of your transition, but not necessarily you. If you were an actor, you would test many roles until discovering the roles that best match your personality whether Shakespearean or comedic. Likely discovering that even though you could perform all stage roles, not all roles were comfortable.
Your current emotional shift is on two levels. You are testing yourself because much of your pre-transition personality was developed for comfort in 3D society. In addition, your emotions are fluctuating rapidly for you are shifting your emotional repertoire to a standstill before selecting the emotional scale that best fits your personality in this new world.
If you were a 3D emotional caretaker, you might have adapted a happy and light personality to counter balance fears in your immediate world. And the same is true if you were frightened or angry much of the time.
So it is that you have adapted your persona to blend most easily in your world. Perhaps your family was so dysfunctional in 3D terms you felt the need to become the pinata of that dysfunction, or unnaturally cheerful, or pretending to yourself and others that there was nothing amiss with your family dynamics. Even though there were many other roles you played within your eons of 3D life, those three were likely most dominant.
You performed for society instead of acting on your true emotions. And so it continued lifetime after lifetime as you internalized more fear with more roles to counter those fears.
You are now reviewing the roles which were most beneficial in your various 3D earth lives – and those also in your new you comfort zone.
You might believe you would be most comfortable with ongoing sparkling joy and giggles, even though such is not necessarily true. As occurred in 3D, each of you will select the persona that best suits you. The difference is that your new role or persona will be based on your inner needs instead of outer dynamics.
Perhaps such a thought is confusing – even frightening. Does such a concept mean you will not be joyful? Not at all. Instead, that you might feel joy within as you invent an object – or choose to laugh a great deal every day. Which is little different from determining stage actor comfort roles.
You will finally be you – not a caricature of you as has been true in the past. And to discover that you, you are sifting through your false emotions of 3D and 5D or beyond.
So it is you will likely experience great emotional fluctuations the next few days as you find your true self – not the self you created as a result of your environment, but the self that is joy within your being.
Perhaps you have dreamed of becoming a giggly self as is true of some children – but not all. It would behoove you to observe the variety of personalities displayed by a group of toddlers. Some are giggly, some are sober as they learn a new activity, and others are enchanted with their current interest.
There are no shoulds in your 5D and beyond emotional demeanor. Just as there are no slots, you must fit in if you are going to interact with a specific group of people.
You are discovering your emotional comfort zone by clearing your slate of 3D and 5D or beyond expected emotions.
For you to expect that you will react in 5D or beyond as you once did in 3D is to not have thought through the logic of that concept. For your 3D emotions were based on your need to fit in, not necessarily your true self.
We venture to guess you have already discovered some roles hidden deep within you that do not feel comfortable now. So it is you are saying no to this or that reaction. At the same time, you might pine for a role that feels more comfortable as you read through your various new you scripts.
You are arriving at an emotional standstill – neither of 3D or of 5D or beyond. In a sense, as if you were between stage performances. The difference is that the role you finally select will be based on true you instead of social you. A role that will feel so right, you no longer need to worry about what to say or do in any situation for your reactions will be natural – just as a toddler’s reactions are natural until he or she is trained differently.
So it is you are flitting through emotion after emotion, surprising yourself and those around you – much as toddlers do before they are trained to perform according to the rules of their environment.
You are clearing, testing, and experimenting as you discover emotional new you. Allow that to be during the next few days for the energies floating about are different from what you have experienced.
Even though the current energies are love energies, they are dedicated emotional love energies so that from this time forward you can tap into roles that are you – not the roles of your neighbors, family, or co-workers – finding your comfort zone as you declare your emotional self-love. So be it. Amen.
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By Jelelle Awen
Feeling raw in the moment…thought I would write when I am raw rather than when I am ‘clear’ and see what comes through. The rawness is the after effects of a deep emotional body movement yesterday. The rawness is how it feels after a purging that comes from so DEEP within that you wonder how could ALL THIS have possibly existed inside of me somewhere? It has been truly fascinating to me over the years HOW MUCH can actually be IN us, stuck in us, stored in us, and how deep and vast the emotional body and our subconscious actually ARE.
STRONG tears came through for me and I sent a lifeline request out to one of my most precious Metasoul sisters/guides to hold space with me for it. Her love, combined with my embodying higher self’s love, held the space while the pain moved through. When…
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This period of time is extremely difficult for many people on the earth that are enduring stages of the Dark Night of the Soul, whether consciously on the spiritual path or not. Recently, the larger collective consciousness themes are around the power struggles and deep conflicts that exist in the structure of falsity and delusions, when electrified by the lightning flash that cracks through the darkness and confusion to illuminate the contents in front of us so that we can see or gain deeper truth. When we are struck by lightning, this can be a terror based or painful event in our lives that activates intense energy pouring up and into the body, and this creates an inner conjunction with the energy blockages in the body which surfaces great discomfort, anxiety, pain or fear. Most of the time when we experience an event in our lives in which lightning strikes occur, it is uncovering not only false structures, but buried parts of the unconscious mind and cellular memories that are embedded in our bodies. Meeting the negative energy or blockages when this inner conjunction is made acts as the spiritual catalyst for great changes and potential transformation, it forces the surface or hidden fears located in the pain body to be brought out into the thoughts, emotions, behaviors or in the impulses of the person.
When the person has no spiritual context, and if they are not strong enough to discipline their mind to gain control over outward impulses, they may find themselves acting out destructive archetypes and narratives of pain, fear and dramas with the people around them that trigger these inner memory buttons. Some of these emotional triggers can be from other lifetimes and those experiences, as well as unhealed emotional conflicts in the current lifetime that have been carried over because the negative emotional theme was left unresolved in other lifetimes or identities. It is important to understand that we can compassionately witness these impulses and negative narratives as they surface to us, but we do not have to choose to play them out in our body. In fact, it can be very traumatic if a person just allows themselves to be a slave to their impulses and play these narratives out unconsciously, which is re-engaging automatic memories from the collective consciousness that can be recycled into our life experiences, over and over again. The more we repeat the same trauma pattern over and over, it registers imprints in our nervous system, brain and consciousness, making it harder to stop the destructive cycles of pain body triggers and ego wounds.
These pain body triggers and ego wounds can be further manipulated by negative entities, such as Fallen Angelics, which predictably will find wounds to jump onto and magnify the pain so the person is nearly a marionette puppet being pulled by attachment strings.
To stop the manipulation of painful and destructive emotional patterns, we have to stop acting them out, we must gain control over our impulses and make a strong decision to choose states of inner peace over succumbing to states of inner violence. Sometimes this means time out, take a break, turn off the mind and shift the body into passive and relaxed states, such as through meditation, and finding inner stillness. Inner violence is the contents of the collective unconscious mind and pain body, while inner peace is the state of the spiritual self or super-consciousness. To create a bridge between the unconscious contents recorded in the pain body, and link them with the highest spiritual self, not only will we be the recipient of lightning strikes from the heavens above, we will be placed in a position where we must choose peace and love, in order to remain inner connected.
What may the Dismantling of Ego or Lightning Strike phase of Spiritual Initiation look like?
How many times may you recall when you are feeling safe within the narrow confines of your life, feeling comfortable in your current thoughts, beliefs and expectations? Then from out of nowhere, something shocking happens that completely destroys your day to day narrative and personal images of what you had thought your life would continue to be. All sense of security and structure that reinforced your identity, those people and circumstances that reflected a mirror image of what you thought was harmonious, reveals itself to be something else entirely.
Many times when lightning strikes we are seeing the delusion or falsity that was present in those interactions that gave us a false sense of strength and security. Much of the time this is the sudden realization that personal comfort was based on a house of cards, the inadequate foundation of false thoughts, beliefs and action.
This phase of spiritual growth can bring shocking inner and outer change and greater self-realization, it is a time of great personal turmoil when we go through the process of seeing blind spots in situations. When we see our blind spots, the places we were naïve or just plain wrong, now, what will you do and how will you manage the changes happening while facing the shocking truth?
When we are exposed to the lightning strike which is the marker of a personal spiritual initiation that leads into another level of consciousness, experiences, and spiritual ascension, the next stage of emotional processing is generally shock. The central nervous system, brain and body can be pushed into an overloaded and overwhelmed state, subsequently there can be several cycles after the lighting strike that sends oceanic waves of frequency to move throughout the physical, emotional, mental and spiritual layers. These subsequent waves as they settle into a more coherent and integrated pattern within the lightbody layers, a person can move into feeling numb, apathetic, disorientated in time and in a void. This is a major life upheaval, it is spiritual crisis, bringing on normal reactions of grief, anger, sadness, confusion, sleepless nights and even facing confrontations with others.
When we are undergoing a change in the foundation of our sense of security and identity, it penetrates to the deepest core of our being, reverberating shock waves that force us to get out of personal comfort zones and to emotionally and spiritually grow beyond the current level.
The sudden destruction of our artificially created world and identity structures usually represent the inner and outer barriers erected to hide from yourself and others that express how you really feel. These mental body structures are personal defenses, ego defense mechanisms, walls put up to disguise certain feelings, to cover up true inner thoughts and feelings. When a person is undergoing incredible stress and pressure, these walls can shatter, finally revealing your true inner self and feelings to those people around you.
When we suppress or hold back intense feelings and painful emotional processing, the internal pressure can be so great that we over-react, go paranoid, or play out victim-victimizer roles in our outward impulses or reactions. Our discernment is not good when we can only see through the lens of inner pain, and so it is critical we do not take things personally, because it’s not personal. Be very careful with how much of yourself that you attempt to hide, because you must know that one day, everything will be revealed, over time the truth is revealed always.
Therefore, when lightning strikes and you are thrown into personal turmoil, feeling pain and confusion, the first thing to remember is this is an act of creation within the destruction, and that it is potentially leading you to higher consciousness states, so don’t over react and let fear totally paralyze you. In this stage, you are being asked to break down all the false structures that have been artificially created or are no longer productive for your spiritual growth. If you resist the walls coming down to reveal the greater truth of your own unproductive behaviors that need correction, and instead play the hot potato ego game of assigning blame or dark interference upon others around you, this will increase pain and difficulty, as well as lead to the risk of negative spirit attachments magnifying the pain in you and possibly others. We are all breaking through the façades and pretense in our life, and by pretending, feigning, imagining and wishing things were different, this only puts up more pretense in order to constantly defend the rebuilding of your crumbling reality to maintain appearances for others, and this will only make things worse.
When people are totally overwhelmed and undergoing this stage of intense shock and pain, the ego may surface the narcissistic wounding and superior attitudes in order to face others and to try to cope with what is happening. When the narcissistic wound shows up in people, the main theme is they are blind to what anyone else is really undergoing, it’s harder for them to consider or cooperate in a natural flow with other people.
The narcissistic wound means that person’s immediate issues and concerns become the central importance and all-consuming focus, it’s the only thing they can see when they are in pain or fear, and this produces the me, myself and I self-preservation consciousness.
The narcissistic wound in the three layers of ego is desperate to survive, and in its death throes will rise thought forms of sensing internal and external threats, sensations of severe discomfort with life’s situations, that lead to internal distractions of circular obsessions and prolonged anxiety.
Remember that the artificial façades, self-delusions and barriers are going to fall, whether you like it or not, because you have reached a limit in this area, and can no longer live with it. Although this phase of spiritual growth is very hard, we all have to undergo this process, no one gets away from this critical piece of spiritual ascension.
The mountain of ego, pain body, deceptions, facades, illusions, manipulations and emotional bait hooks must be destroyed so that you are free to face truth and gain an accurate sense of reality without false attachments.
Please remember you are undergoing the necessary changes required to accept the consciousness shift that will move you forward into more personal and spiritual freedom, clearing inner violence and living in a state of inner peace. The caveat is that you cannot resist it, and you cannot hide from it, this will require unraveling the deeper truth so that you can rise out of Service to Self consciousness and into the macrocosm perception of the Service to Others group consciousness. Embrace the opportunity to expand your consciousness and see things in your life, and your place in the Universe in a totally new way.
There are some of us on the spiritual path that may be holding space for others, loved ones around us that are undergoing this intense process of lighting strike. Our loved ones, friends and acquaintances may be confused about what is occurring, they may be projecting assorted images, they may have faulty memory, they may be acting out past life archetypes, they may feel threatened and terrorized with survival fears in the future. They are unable to deeply understand all that is happening because they are utterly overwhelmed with intense energies, which surface deep emotional pain and grief.
When people are enduring intense pain and confusion while undergoing major life altering transformation and change, they may seek to pull you into their emotional entanglements and narratives.
To hold a clear and unconditionally loving space for such intense forms of spiritual alchemy, it is important to hold complete observer towards the process, even when it can be painful to watch people we care about endure such intense pain, confusion and grief. In spiritual community, this is a call for self-mastery in compassionate witnessing, and never, ever taking on another person’s emotional process or disjointed perceptions when they are in the deep and heated battle of the inner Armageddon, while the ego construct is flailing about in its death throes.
Practice Compassionate Witnessing
Compassionate Witnessing is a natural function of expanded Consciousness which occurs during the embodiment of the higher spiritual-energetic intelligent bodies when the person is dedicated to Christos Principles of Compassion. In the earlier stages of awakening, the goal is to clear the fear programs and survival terror that is programmed into the Negative Ego and the Pain Body. This can be accomplished by identifying the Negative Ego thought forms as fear based and refocusing these painful, destructive thoughts by shifting perspective into Neutral Association or Observer Point. When this skill of disciplining the mind from the Negative Ego reaches a certain threshold in spiritual ascension embodiment, the benefits lead one to experience mental and emotional freedom, completely free of personal suffering.
The Law of Compassion is the first basic truth of One Self-God Self. As One Self-God Self, to be “Compassion in Action” towards others is then to be in harmony and right relationship to Self, right relationship to God, right relationship to the Universe. This is a Law of One practice. (Love Yourself, Love Others, Love the Earth and all of her creatures, is an action of Compassion.)
While the earth and many people around us are enduring the challenges of the Dark Night, along with the Lightning Strike and subsequently going into shock and pain body processing, being of service also means we must be true to ourselves and set appropriate boundaries that keep us in alignment to our own natural rhythm and flows. When people are processing personal pain, they will tend to pull you into sharing their perceptions of pain through subtle or not so subtle manipulations. Generally the desire for people in pain is to find others that can commiserate with them, and this may look like emotional bait hooks trying to reel you into their perceptions. The best service you can be to the earth, is to love yourself and others unconditionally, without taking on their personal lessons for spiritual growth.
Everyone has to walk the path of spiritual ascension and do their own emotional work, and it is unique for every person, you do not want to interfere or take another person’s lessons away from them.
This means you will need to maintain your natural flows and set the terms of staying in the natural rhythms of your life, those rhythms that you have created for self-care, and to be true to yourself.
Our biggest struggles, challenges and problems in life can be generated when we are not in alignment with our own internal natural rhythms, which is defined through maintaining the alignment with our inner spirit.
We cannot stay present in the now moment when we are out of sync with ourselves. When we honor and allow our natural, authentic way of being in the world that is in harmony with the values we hold and align with our spiritual purpose and mission, we stay in the synchronicity of divine energetic flow. When we are aligned with our inner self, we must honor the authentic rhythm and harmony in our life, so we can listen to our highest spiritual self, which keeps us in alignment with the harmony of the Universal Laws.
The most important relationships we have is with our higher power, God, and the inner relationship we have with ourselves.
During these tumultuous times, this is your priority to develop every day. Take care of these two most important relationships. And when something or someone is not happy because you take this space to connect into the natural rhythms of life, instead of fulfilling their personal needs and expectations of you, gently tell them that you follow your inner spirit without hesitation, and that you listen to nothing other than how your spirit guides you. We must find unconditional love and acceptance for ourselves, before we can truly allow people to be who they are without judgments and expectations. When we accept the responsibility to become a God-Sovereign-Free being, it means that we must protect our own rights to stay in higher alignment in so to achieve sovereignty, as well as to protect the rights of others in so they are free to be who they are, having the right to their own personal experiences and perceptions.
Stay awake as we traverse the valleys of the shadow and death, on the other side of destruction is creation, which awaits the deeper illumination of higher consciousness that we have worked so hard to achieve. May the Spirits of Christ walk with you, in Purity, Generosity, Patience, Kindness, Discipline/Conservation, Diligence and Humility.
Much love and gratitude,
~via EnergeticSynthesis.com – Time Shift Blog – June 20, 2017